We all would think that being in a relationship it would come easy, but it doesn’t. Its a learning process that I feel takes a lifetime. The one thing that helped myself is that my partner knows me insideout more than I know myself.
It all started when I was I younger and my step father was a mean an abusive man to my mom, sister and myself. As I grew up and started my journey of life it didn’t always go as planned. I met a few that were not relationship type. They either abusive or just not into the relationship at all. I lived like this for years until one day I had enough and moved to my mothers house for a week and then to a shelter where I resided for 3 months. that time was tough due to not having much support and 3 children with me. It did get easier when I finally moved into my own place. I didn’t have much when when I moved but as the years went by thing start to accumulate fast. Thats when I met my husband, he was kind loving, and very supportive. It was hard for me et the time to except all this kindness when I had just endured years of abuse. Communicating for me was hard due to not knowing how. I always lived trying to having everyones approval and I think in all that time I forgot about myself. In my present situation it wasn’t all roses and candy, but times hurt and unwantedness on both parts. A #relationship is a two way street and believe me if one person is always trying to fix the circumstances it won’t work. You both have to want too, sit down with each other and let out all that is on your mind whether its good or bad. Finding solutions can come easy, but again you both will need to work together. We went years with him going to work and I’m with the kids. I started to feel unwanted, unloved, unappreciated, and everything I did was never good enough. Having these feelings and friends that are fake did not help our situation at all. She gave bad advice, bad mouthed my situation and came across that I was better off without my husband and our life together. I began to feel that she right in that she was saying because it felt that we weren’t connecting anymore. I started feeling and thinking that my love for him wasn’t there anymore, and we needed to change our situation and him move out. It was over the Christmas that we started to connect a bit. I started to lay beside him at night. Things were not back to normal but it was a start to something. We did that for about a week or so until we sat down with a bottle of wine and beer and started talking. It was a amazing feeling the way we start to have a normal conversation with each other and getting to know one another again all over. Every morning and night when we see each other we kiss one another ask how our day has been. We talk every night and make time for each other. That was always the problem #makingtime with each other. I look back and wonder why it took for the worst to happen for us to reconnect again.
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